No Guru Or Enlightenment Here

For anyone who might mistakenly think I have any extraordinary education or superior wisdom or judgment - I have to say you may be quite disappointed on several counts. I am certainly no saint and have quite often made far less than ideal choices.

 I am a guy who was fooled by a conman into believing he was a demigod for twenty five years, so I have a much firmer claim to being dead wrong and gullible than anything else. I have no authority or stamp of cult expert from God.

I am quite experienced in being a fanatic and zealot blindly following Hubbard to personal ruin.

In the process of leaving Scientology I have spent hundreds of hours trying to undo the lies and influence from Ron Hubbard and his Scientology cult by education. By reading about thought reform, hypnosis, rhetoric, narcissists, sociopaths, abusive relationships, the true history of Scientology and other cults and critical thinking and logical fallacies I have strived to start to find out what actually happened to me and others in Scientology.

I have no profound wisdom and am not an enlightened...anything. I have more uncertainty and doubt than certainty and definite answers to hundreds of issues.

Sometimes people can be impressed by a vocabulary or familiarity with several subjects. Well, honestly I have worked to get whatever information I have learned but work doesn't equal value.

Another way to put it for anyone who is impressed is to say think of an example : often high school students realize the only difference between them and their teachers regarding knowledge about their courses is that the teacher's textbook has the answers while the students doesn't.

At best I merely have read a little more or something different than someone else .By just reading a bit anyone can catch up,  or pass me. For any ex cult member I advise you to consider any claims I make one by one on their own merits and always remember I get some things wrong,  it is unavoidable. Also I can read,  accept and pass on incorrect information. So, by remembering that exes can keep perspective on anything I or anyone else puts out. I do not want anyone following me as we did Hubbard. I prefer equals.

If an equal tells you something you evaluate it hopefully without bias. That's all I ask for or deserve.