Hello , I am an ex Scientologist , this blog is primarily about that but I may address other topics as the mood hits me to . I was in Scientology for 25 years and spent about 10,000 hours using the indoctrination and thought reform method "study tech " . I also spent time on staff and met hundreds of Scientologists and did hundreds of the cult practices . Many were the "ethics cycles and OW writeups " that really are an attempt to suppress or remove a person's identity and replace it with a mental pseudo clone of Ron Hubbard . To make a fanatical slave for the cult .

I looked outside the cult for answers in about January 2014 and left the cult in about March of 2014 . While in about 99% of members have no idea of the truth .

We are told we are in a mental therapy or spiritual enhancement or religion or science for helping people unlock potential . Or any of several other fronts that all pretend kind and humanitarian goals .

The truth is Scientology is a terrorist mind control cult and this blog is my attempt to understand and expose that . And try to state as clearly as possible the tools that I have found helpful in dealing with this .

Friday, September 16, 2016

Turning Scientologese and Turning Back

One of the things that helped me get out of the Scientology trance was getting a new job. I had to communicate with people rapidly and understand their subtle and not so subtle intentions and thoughts.
I realized ALWAYS thinking in Scientology doctrine impaired my communication with others. I thought switching to English words would make rapid communication with others easier.
I didn't see it as rejecting Scientology. I thought it was like a person that knows French and Spanish moving from France to Spain and just thinking in Spanish.
I didn't realize how Scientology limits thought to Hubbard's doctrine and away from any disagreements with that reality ( meaning agreement in Scientology).
I started to be able to consider ideas I previously had automatically shut out for decades. I started to think thoughts that Scientology automatically labels wrong.
I realized after several months in thinking in English that there is more gradation to people and behavior than Scientology recognizes. And that being unsure is more accurate often than false certainty. And that a person regardless of their beliefs is ultimately responsible for their own choices. That's certainly outside Scientology.
It was like a seismic shift, but I didn't realize that it was changing my entire relationship with all the information I held. I shifted to seeing myself as responsible for my actions and not Hubbard.
It loosened everything. Without that cancellation of critical and independent thinking regarding Hubbard's authority my entire perspective started opening up.
I would get feelings, doubts and long buried thoughts that are forbidden in Scientology bubbling up to be in my conscious mind over the next few months. The automatic assumptions about Hubbard's infallibility and Scientology's transcendent nature would move from uninspected assumptions that framed all my thoughts and filtered all my perceptions to glaring contradictions to the evidence before my eyes.

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