Hello , I am an ex Scientologist , this blog is primarily about that but I may address other topics as the mood hits me to . I was in Scientology for 25 years and spent about 10,000 hours using the indoctrination and thought reform method "study tech " . I also spent time on staff and met hundreds of Scientologists and did hundreds of the cult practices . Many were the "ethics cycles and OW writeups " that really are an attempt to suppress or remove a person's identity and replace it with a mental pseudo clone of Ron Hubbard . To make a fanatical slave for the cult .

I looked outside the cult for answers in about January 2014 and left the cult in about March of 2014 . While in about 99% of members have no idea of the truth .

We are told we are in a mental therapy or spiritual enhancement or religion or science for helping people unlock potential . Or any of several other fronts that all pretend kind and humanitarian goals .

The truth is Scientology is a terrorist mind control cult and this blog is my attempt to understand and expose that . And try to state as clearly as possible the tools that I have found helpful in dealing with this .

Saturday, May 30, 2015

The Dilemma Of The False Self

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 This post is about how the Scientology thought reform program transforms people but even more it is about what the template or original mold they are meant to fit into is based on: Ron Hubbard. It is a shorter compliment to  Scientology's parallel in nature - malignant narci...

I feel the thought reform program mentally enslaves through a series of harmful practices and transcends mere lies. It makes Scientologists transform unknowingly very gradually into slaves/victims to Hubbard who acts as master/power holder in an abusive relationship.

They surrender their will and judgment to Hubbard's so totally that often they are his thralls and mental pseudo clones. As he was a malignant narcissist with a fractured mind he had certain qualities. He knew in a hidden, scared, ashamed, worthless self that he was a useless fraud and liar. He hid this behind a fake veneer,  a false fortress of perfect, beautiful lies to fool , win over and control others.

He intended to use others to act as a mirror that reflected back to him the reality he wished for but could never have. To him the false perfect godlike self and the people he presented it to both were only relevant as they served to escape the overwhelming inferiority and vulnerabilities he loathed and never accepted in himself. His insatiable desire for wealth and power was his attempt to force reality to change so he could escape his own beliefs about himself.

He had the dilemma of the false self - if people conformed to his lies,  they didn't really accept or love him so it feeds his feelings of isolation and alienation. They only loved the lies and he knew it. If they did not go along with the fake perfect self he was enraged as he felt entirely inadequate and projected that ruthlessly on others but deep down felt impotent rage at a world that did not love or even really see him and that he knew he was not good enough for, and never would be. That is the inner world of a malignant narcissist and I believe it was Hubbard's.

The ideal orgs physically manifest this - a beautiful castle or fortress as a pretense of prosperity, success and effective altruism. Inside are confused , anxious, trapped, ineffective, emotionally immature magical thinkers. They deny contradictory evidence and project onto critics. They strive frantically and fail to overcome their human vulnerabilities they see as inadequacy. Look closely at the lives of the Sea Org and staff and even public cult members.  They are all slaves.

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